Roller Coaster Ride

Thursday, July 10th, I went in for my weekly blood draw. Since I haven't been worrying about anything, I didn't bother to call and find out what my results were. By the time I found out-late Friday-it turns out that my hormone levels went back up. A little confusing for everyone. One of the doctors at my office who was still there said there was a possibility this could be an ectopic pregnancy and they wanted me to get blood drawn again on Saturday. I went in first thing yesterday morning and had my blood drawn and at 11:45 got a phone call from my OB-Dr. Barrong. He said my numbers had increased again-not doubling though, like a normal pregnancy-and talked to me about the concern of an ectopic pregnancy as well. He had me go in to the ER so I could get an ultrasound done. Originally I had one scheduled for Monday afternoon, but I was anxious to find out what was going on, so I did what he wanted me to do. I felt like some of the ER staff thought I was making stuff up, because when I told them I wasn't having any severe pain they all kind of had that "rrrright" expression-and told me, "well, usually people who are having an ectopic pregnancy are in a lot of pain". Duh! Really? So, nearly six hours in the ER (which is really unpleasant, by the way), an ultrasound, and they found absolutely nothing. I was so frustrated. The ER Doc told me that she thought that I just had a miscarriage, probably a couple of weeks ago, and that my hormones might just be out of whack. Wow- that sure makes me feel better. I almost feel like I wish they had found and ectopic pregnancy, so that there would be some explanation of what is going on. I guess I feel sort of mad right now and just really confused. I am supposed to follow up with Dr. Barrong tomorrow and hopefully he can give me something a little more solid to go on. I was so ok with the fact that I was having a miscarriage and then all this happens and I go for an emotional roller coaster ride (more like a kiddie-coaster, but still). First I get all freaked out about an ectopic pregnancy, because they can be really dangerous, feeling like I am just waiting for something bad to happen, like my organs to internally explode, ruin my ovary and fallopian tube or worse and then they find NOTHING! I am taking a day off today to just try and relax and feel what ever I feel like feeling. I hope tomorrow will be a day of better answers, although I will probably just end up going to get more blood drawn. I really trust Dr. Barrong though and he is a wonderful Doctor, so I am sure I will feel better tomorrow after hearing what he has to say about everything, after all, he is the OB expert-not the ER Doc.